17 November 2015

Continuation

My big toe seems to have improved, with a bit less pain then when it first happened. Never thought that taking care of laundry would be this grave. Hoping that at the initial check up at the VA to get my primary care designation I'll be able to see what kind of care will be needed. Hopefully, no surgery will be involved. Wondering what will be involved if there is. Only time will tell, though I would like to just not go through surgery and just get through the healing process. Even as annoying as walking on one part of my foot is and as annoying as the dull pain is in my right toe.

The Norco does help with alleviating what does exist. Progression is seemingly coming along because of it as well. Just wishing that it would heal faster. Healing right wouldn't happen that way I guess. It is pretty nice to catch up on my Hulu queue though.

One in particular show is Castle. Always did like the kind of shows that involve actors like the main character in Castle. Firefly was a good show and don't know why it was cancelled. And the previous actors are included into some of the episodes of Castle.

Work called, seeing if I would be able to do 4 hours on a scheduled Saturday to see how things worked out. That would be half of my normal time but would be good to still get part of a paycheck. Sunday night was also a scheduled night that would also see how things would work if Saturday goes well. Two nights off after that and I have my VA appointment on the next scheduled night for work. So pretty much, I'll be letting work know how the appointment goes when all is said and done.

Pretty much, after Wednesday, I'll have have medical whether or not I have a job after that. Just not sure what all I'll have after that.

12 November 2015

As it is

Not sure if I should have waited so long to get my foot looked at considering how it felt after I had slipped on the stairs and how my right foot had gotten caught. It had seemed to have held the weight of my body which had felt to transfer all to that one toe. It had been shortly after getting off work and had a few minutes after getting home decided to get my laundry from the dryer. Hindsight suggests that I could have worn my indoor shoes to prevent the slip.

Upon review of the x-rays, the doc had said that the part of the big toe on my right foot was fractured and that I should have minimal use of walking until it is healed and that I should have it looked at in 7 to 10 days to see whether surgery is necessary or not. 6 to 10 weeks was his time frame for healing if no surgery is needed. When I go into the VA clinic on the 25th of this month, it have been 10 days and then they will be able to look at it. I was going to be going in initially to get a initial check up to get primary care established but this will be part of what I go in for as well.

Pretty glad that I went in to get my foot checked out. Definitely helps to know what is going on with it that thereis a process for taking care of it. Just don't know if I will have a job when the whole thing is said and done. Though I am pretty sure that I will be qualified for unemployment if I am jobless after this.

In the meantime, I will rest and elevate my foot to let it heal. The bridge will be crossed when I get there.

06 June 2015

For real though....

For real though

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THE STORY OF NUBS

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19 March 2015

Gods by Langston Hughes

The ivory gods,
And the ebony gods,
And the gods of diamond and jade,
Sit silently on their temple shelves
While the people
Are afraid.
Yet the ivory gods,
And the ebony gods,
And the gods of diamond-jade,
Are only silly puppet gods
That the people themselves
Have made.

~ Langston Hughes

07 January 2015

Possible Job In Hoffman Estates

Yesterday, I had gotten an email from a head hunter wondering if I may be interested in a possible job with Siemens. I had replied with an updated resume. The position was better geared to what I went to school for and was nearly double the pay I am currently getting. Naturally I would take it, right?

Today, I get a call from the head hunter wanting a little bit more info before sending on my resume. Found out that it would be about a week or so for them to get back about the potential candidates. If they were interested in me through my resume, then I would be offered an interview. This still sounded good, hoping for the best that they would ultimately hire me.

Would love to be back in the Chicago Area. Has a lot more to offer then the small town I am currently living in. Plus, it would help me to get my life back on track. May even help me with finishing up my Bachelor’s.

Started looking for possible places to live should the opportunity for employment with such a wonderful establishment. Think I may have tried before to get a job with Siemens but it didn’t work out. Hoffman Estates is a nice area and wouldn’t mind living there for a little while.

09 November 2014

What The Marine Corps Birthday And Veterans Day Means To Me

Tomorrow, on Monday, 10 November 2014, it will be the 239th year of the Marine Corps. The day after, Veteran’s Day. Thinking first of the Marine Corps, what comes to mind are those I served along side with. 5 years of my life, spent in an effort to be part of what was to be bigger than myself.  A path paved by those before me and those after, fulfilling an obligation freely taken and fully served for the country we believed in, a country we dared to protect against those who dare to take it and destroy. Freedoms we protected were given up so that our families, friends, and others may have them as enjoyment. The sacrifice of past, current, and future Marines will always be remembered by those close to them and the ones they protect. Those who died that I served with gave willingly of themselves so that those back home may enjoy comforts that all can work for. A sacrifice that will allow the freedom to enjoy each day to the fullest and to read, watch, write, speak, listen, believe or not believe etc. anything that is reasonable to them.

Freedoms that all should and aught to enjoy around the world are enjoyed in America. Those freedoms fought hard for by those who served in the Marine Corps and the other services, which is what Veteran’s Day is set to help us as a nation to remember.

The family’s of those that have served give up so much as well in order for those that serve may serve even more freely. Parents who let their sons and daughters go to war, knowing that they may never see them again. Wives and husbands who support their spouses in their service to fellow man and country, fearing just as well that it is for the greater good that the spouse protects the country with the gift of self, wholly and without reservation, knowing the ultimate gift is their life. Last but definitely not least, are the children whose parent ( s ) serve, growing up knowing what was given. Those who have lost loved ones in exchange for the protection of freedom and home soil know the cost that comes with supporting such actions.

Those who serve in all the branches know the cost of bearing such a weight, doing it gladly knowing the reward at the end.

This Marine Corps Birthday and Veteran’s Day have a significance to me in that I know the cost given by those fallen that I served with. Within the unit I served at OEF2, 6 I knew died, giving of themselves, committed to never letting any dangers that may come after what they cherished back back home get any closer than was necessary, especially if they could have a say. Since coming back, I have remembered them, always keeping in mind the sacrifice they made. The 6 I knew, along with the countless others.

10 August 2014

A Contradiction To Mormonism Part 1

Thinking about my relatively short time in Mormonism, I have come to find out of certain contradiction within the faith itself. In this part, I will take notice of the biblical contradictions.

First, the claim in Helaman 8: 21 of the Book of Mormon. Here, three questions are asked about the destruction of Jerusalem, if the sons of Zedekiah were truly killed except for Mulek, and if the “seed” of Zedekiah were present at that time and were driven out of Jerusalem.

And now will you dispute that Jerusalem was destroyed? Will ye say that the sons of Zedekiah were not slain, all except it were Mulek? Yea, and do ye not behold that the seed of Zedekiah are with us, and they were driven out of the land of Jerusalem? But behold, this is not all— (Helaman 8: 21)

In reference to Zedekiah, the Old Testament shows that Zedekiah’s end was to watch his progeny die at the hands of the king of Babylon, have his eyes poked out, then to became chained and made captive. He was to remain a captive of Babylon till his death. Pretty sure that he was unable to have any children after that. As for Mulek, his name is never even mentioned in the bible.

And the city was besieged unto the eleventh year of king Zedekiah. And on the ninth day of the fourth month the famine prevailed in the city, and there was no bread for the people of the land. And the city was broken up, and all the men of war fled by night by the way of the gate between two walls, which is by the king's garden: (now the Chaldees were against the city round about:) and the king went the way toward the plain. And the army of the Chaldees pursued after the king, and overtook him in the plains of Jericho: and all his army were scattered from him. So they took the king, and brought him up to the king of Babylon to Riblah; and they gave judgment upon him. And they slew the sons of Zedekiah before his eyes, and put out the eyes of Zedekiah, and bound him with fetters of brass, and carried him to Babylon. (1 Kings 25: 2 – 7)[see also: Jeremiah 39: 2 – 7; 44: 30; 52: 5 – 11]

Second, there’s another Book of Mormon reference: 1 Nephi 1: 4. Lehi is mentioned as a person in this verse during the reign of Zedekiah. Any reference to Lehi refers to a place located in Judah, no person or living entity.

For it came to pass in the commencement of the first year of the reign of Zedekiah, king of Judah, (my father, Lehi, having dwelt at Jerusalem in all his days); and in that same year there came many prophets, prophesying unto the people that they must repent, or the great city Jerusalem must be destroyed. (1 Nephi 1: 4)

Considering the evidence and “non-evidence”, the conclusion based on the bible itself brings to light that Mormonism, Joseph Smith, and the Book of Mormon have no valid place in honesty or reality. Joseph Smith himself has been proven to be a fraud countless times before he brought about to fruition a whole new religion.

Thinking back, I remember a friend in Mormonism saying that he would believe in it whether it was true or not. All I could think of at that point how sad it was that anybody would prefer believing a lie over the truth, even if it made them feel good. Like taking a placebo over the real thing and therefore never truly getting better. Like Matt Dilahunty, I prefer believing as many true things as possible. Truth that is factual and evidence based.

Though I wish I at least known this when first approached by the missionaries, I am just glad I know it now. Glad they did though, or else I would not have decided to look for the information and have the ability to use it in the future. Just hoping that constructive conversation can be part of the equation of figuring out how they choose to explain what I have found. Hoping to dwindle the hold that such mythology has on the general public.

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30 July 2014

Can You Ever Really Be Too Beautiful For A Team Sport?







I find it odd that anyone on a sports team could be too beautiful or too much of anything apart from being too much of a bad sport. When I saw the video, it made me question why it was an issue in the first place. Many times over, activities like Cheerleading, dancing, acting, etc, have no known issue, to me anyways, with any one person being too beautiful. As far as I can tell, there's noone less then beautiful. Beauty even seems to be promoted.

27 July 2014

Not Sure Yet About My Focus As An Atheist Blogger

Not Sure About My Focus 
Having trouble trying to have a main focus as far as what to write concerning atheism after much of what I’ve been seeing. I want to join the “fight” against passing myth, fantasy, and magic as truth and reality. Being over generalized, Atheism vs. Religion/Faith/Myth, without any clear direction as to which way it is going. No path set or any signs pointing as to which way to go, I am left with a question mark over my head at the paths going willy-nilly.  
At first, I wanted to comb through the news and find different ways of acknowledging how religion was doing it wrong. Upon further consideration, I realized I did not have a matrix of how I would go about it since I had been so used to keeping most of my opinions to myself. 
The further along I went down that line of thought, it made me think about my “time” with the JW’s. I began to realize that there had been a constant thought in the back of my mind about how I was indirectly chastised about thinking for myself and that the elders were the only ones who should do the thinking for me, along with determining whom I was to actually be. The governing body was the one who was actually pulling the strings like a puppet master, seeing how they were the ones putting out the information that was to be studied each Sunday along with whatever weekday was chosen by the congregation for the book study and other material.  
Dwelling on that, I realized that had I not left when I did, I would have allowed others to do my thinking for me as well as allowing them to have complete control over me. This could be applicable to Mormonism and Christianity in general. 
The veil had lifted, as the saying goes. I am positive that there are pure and unselfish intentions by some, but know that most do it for the control that being in such authority allows for. Interestingly, I noticed how veil equals evil. Same letters with a couple rearranged between the two allows both to go hand in hand. Intention may not have been there but the correlation has become evident to me.  
Being able to think for myself with the verifiable information allowed, makes the future brighter. As an individual, still single and no kids, happiness comes at the fact that I am not subject to a wife and children still in any particular religion with me having come out of it. As the proverb goes, a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Freedom that is allowed to me in making my own decisions helps me to exercise my mind. Accepting as well that mistakes will be made, being human. No one is born perfect nor born with the instincts that other animals have that allow them to live in their environment. 
This idea helps me to appreciate the value of life more, having the ability to think, being able to exercise my mind that in turn will give me more capableness in being able to handle any future decisions. In particular, when any new facts come to light that will help make way for a better path; I will be ready for it. Admittedly, there is still a lot for me to learn and to overcome, especially for as long as I have been in the concept of “faith”. Appreciation for the way that believing in a deity is no different than believing in Santa Claus. Both are based, not on or in reality, but exist to give a false hope, and in most ways the way of controlling the one who believes in the concept. 
My intention is not to use this blog as a platform to rant and rave while spinning my tires in the mud. I do plan on going somewhere with it. To at least help me learn along the true path of reality and maybe to help those where I can. Reading fantasy and sci-fi genres are the best, but having to accept them as truth is no way to live. Like Aesop’s Fables and Grimm’s Fairytales are ways of conveying certain truths, so should the approach to any belief without having to take the trash with the cake. 
During work this week, a co-worker had mentioned that Satan was more of a warden when I had brought up the fact that “hell” would not be all that bad since those going there were doing what Satan wanted anyway. To say the least, I found it interesting since it was the first time I had heard of Satan being as such. Never quite heard it put that way before though I am sure that there is no reference of him being as such.

20 July 2014

Why I am an Atheist

To begin, I was born going to church, my involvement in the religious aspect lasting from 1982 to about early 2013. The journey I started on in becoming an atheist began when I was involved with the Jehovah’s Witnesses and was watching Youtube videos based on people having initially been involved with JW’s and weren’t anymore. Watching these videos made me wonder how the common reference to the JW’s as being a cult was true. At the time, I could not really see it. With fear as a common tactic described as the consensus of being part of a cult, ALL of Christianity along with Islam would be a cult. Pretty sure that most religions would fit into this category as well.

Having associated with the JW’s for approximately seven years, I started becoming disillusioned with the whole thing, especially after I started listening to atheist podcasts such as Dogma Debate, The Thinking Atheist, and The Atheist Experience. After having changed my religious affiliation on Facebook from Christian to Atheist, I started studying with some Mormons, just to see what it was that they had to offer. This was due to a curiosity that I have had since at least high school. Eye opening was the information that they provided along with info that I had found on the internet, particularly the sites that held information pointing to the contradictions of Mormonism.

After a couple times of studying with the Mormon missionaries, I was baptized. Funny thing was, I believed none of what they believed. The whole thing was just a bit silly to me, especially when they were saying the things that I knew was absolute rubbish. Their learning material was, to me, something that seemed to be made for a child-like mindset.

As for the JW’s, it soon came to my attention, apart from their continuous attempts at false prophecy as much of Christianity does, was that the date 1914 was false. 1914 is based off of the destruction of Jerusalem that happened in 597. According to Jehovah’s Witnesses, the date is 607 B.C.E. as according to most of Christianity. Evidence proves 597 was the true date as proven by science.

Concerning general Christianity, the conflict of “inspiration” concerning verses of the bible has been a constant eye opening experience. Since the bible says that “god” is not the author of confusion, this conflict shouldn’t even exist. This has been a single brick in the whole foundation that brought me to being an atheist.

Then there’s the whole concept of The Great Flood. First, the flood waters. Too much salt water would kill fresh water fish. Too much fresh water would kill salt water life. Second, the vegetation. As long as the flood had lasted, the vegetation would have been killed. As a Christian friend mentioned, six months is the least amount of time for vegetation to grow back. Who can wait six months to eat again? How about the herbivores? Third, animal life on the boat itself.

At 8.7 million animals having been cataloged, 6.5 million are land animals. Following what is given towards the end of Genesis chapter 6 and use the two by two, then there’d be 13 million animals on the boat. Who has the time to gather 13 million animals from all over the world along with the food required for them to eat in 7 days according to Genesis 7?

When I had seen the video by The Thinking Atheist on the Flood story, these were some of the points brought up and truly made me think. Along with this that the carnivores would also have needed something eat so the possibility of no more herbivores would also have been good.

Lastly, with the constant expansion of the universe, there is continually less and less where “god” can hide. If biblical creation had been true, the universe would be largely smaller then what it is now. Rocks would also be younger than they are now.

As an atheist having grown up in the church and Christianity in general, I have come to my freedom through the benefit of the internet. The internet has benefited me with great freedom from providing the information necessary to break free from religion. For this I am grateful and will use it as a continual source for my growth as an individual and to help those around me.

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